[ it's not about her capabilities. hell, it's not even about whether or not he'd enjoy having her around. 'cause he would. he'd love to see lisa with sara and jax. love to see her punch rip in the face and fluster the hell out of ray. teach kendra a few things about kicking ass. she would do so well on the waverider and he knows it.
but even if things have smoothed out now, he remembers abandoning mick. he remembers being cuffed and watching as mick--his partner who he'd already lost twice--threatened to kill lisa over, and over, and over again. he remembers watching kendra bury carter. watching jax and stein worry over each other.
lisa traveling with them could be the best thing to happen to the team. or it could break leonard irreparably. and he doesn't know how to tell her that.
he looks down at his hands and picks his words carefully. ] We lost Mick for a while. He was--tortured and brainwashed. It wasn't because he screwed up or wasn't good enough. Wasn't really anybody's fault except mine. And I can't-- [ he rubs a hand over his face. ] I can't fucking lose you too, alright? I can't. So will you please just leave it be?
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'Course you wouldn't be. You wouldn't ever be.
[ it's not about her capabilities. hell, it's not even about whether or not he'd enjoy having her around. 'cause he would. he'd love to see lisa with sara and jax. love to see her punch rip in the face and fluster the hell out of ray. teach kendra a few things about kicking ass. she would do so well on the waverider and he knows it.
but even if things have smoothed out now, he remembers abandoning mick. he remembers being cuffed and watching as mick--his partner who he'd already lost twice--threatened to kill lisa over, and over, and over again. he remembers watching kendra bury carter. watching jax and stein worry over each other.
lisa traveling with them could be the best thing to happen to the team. or it could break leonard irreparably. and he doesn't know how to tell her that.
he looks down at his hands and picks his words carefully. ] We lost Mick for a while. He was--tortured and brainwashed. It wasn't because he screwed up or wasn't good enough. Wasn't really anybody's fault except mine. And I can't-- [ he rubs a hand over his face. ] I can't fucking lose you too, alright? I can't. So will you please just leave it be?